Not so late-night thoughts


It feels like forever since I last posted something that was going through my mind. But tonight, it feels more like I have several levels of thoughts going on.

Firstly, I am finally coming to terms with the fact that the world is not as lovely as I thought and that you can find mean people everywhere. But that doesn’t mean that you have to stop working for your dreams or that you have to outwit someone just to feel better.

As human beings, I believe we have to be better everyday. Better to each other, better at doing things, better at believing in ourselves. Because if we are not better, then what is there left for us?  For the past few years everything has been changing at an increasing speed – sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse.

I never thought I would experience a world where there is war, a world where innocent people are being hurt, but oh, I was so naive. I grew up believing that everybody has something good and positive to offer.  I thought everybody had a story that can teach us something meaningful and good, but now, as I am in my almost mid 20s, I realise that we’ve become so selfish and we’ve put aside our sense of loving and caring and made space for fights that shouldn’t be fought or for technology that should bring us closer rather than divide us.

Then, there is other thing.

I realised I have stopped doing the things I liked because I was to busy to live. Not to necessarily enjoy the life, but to live as plainly and as ordinarily as possible. I became the person I promised never to become: dull, caught in the daily routine, too tired to smile a little more. But now, I’ve made a promise to myself,one that will get me through the days with a meaning, with a true meaning. I will enjoy more sunrises and rains, more outdoor activities, more books, more time spent with friends and family.

We are often stuck in this circle of life and it takes quite some time to realise we haven’t exactly achieved something. I think that the true meaning of having lived is when you wake up in the morning and no matter how many responsibilities lie ahead, you can smile and believe in yourself.

That’s the most important part; being at peace with yourself, with what you can offer and with how you can become a better person.

Oh, and did I mention that sometimes the people around you are those who can make you feel better?

Those who believe in your ideals, those who help you achieve your dreams, those who stand by you no matter what. They say a flower doesn’t ask another flower when it blooms, it just does and that’s what we should remember, too.


At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter how many likes and shares you get on social media platforms, but the laughters that circled your lips.

And remember:

“The greatness of a man is not in how much wealth he acquires, but in his integrity and his ability to affect those around him positively” – Bob Marley


Csilla x


Always do what you’re afraid to do.

“Cultivate an optimistic mind, use your imagination, always consider alternatives, and dare to believe that you can make possible what others think is impossible.”
Rodolfo Costa

via From Up North

   via From Up North

Tomorrow is Monday again and I can see how as soon as I turn off my alarm, I will complain about getting out of bed, about getting ready for work. Speaking of that. I have signed my resignation letter and I have now left only two days of work. After Tuesday, I will have enough time to finish all my final projects and to launch myself into all the projects I had in mind the past months.

Living in London can be exhausting, because the work you need to do in order to pay the bills is always stressful, and after a while, you get tired and you just want to start over. That’s what happened to me, and, truth be told, I feel proud of myself for the decision I took.

In a moment of clarity, I decided to quit my part-time job as a Barista and have a fresh start. To have a time-out for about a month, and then, start the job hunting again. I have realised that taking this decision had several implications and possible collateral damages, but I have calculated everything to the last penny, and, now,  I am finally happy.

I am positive about the future. Although everyone is complaining about how hard it is to find a job in your field after graduation, I still think optimistically and believe that soon everything will be all right. Someone once told me that in order for my happiness to be complete, I’ll have to make sacrifices and leave people behind and I have never would’ve thought this will be the moment I’d say “I am finally satisfied with my decision.”

They say that dreaming about ideals and success is easy, but it takes effort and hard work in order to accomplish them. I couldn’t agree more, but in order to get to a certain destination, you have to be at peace with yourself, with your soul and with your desires.

Some of the things I recommend you do – I follow them myself- in order to have inner peace and less torment are:

1. Never, ever settle for less. You are a strong, independent human being that deserves more.

2. You are beautiful. No matter what the society says, you have a beautiful soul that resonates with


3. Stay strong, regardless of people might do or say; you always have to keep your head lifted and keep going.

4. Always do what you’re afraid to do and you’ll win over your inner demons.

5. Stay positive. Always, stay positive.

via Pinterest

                                                              via Pinterest

Remember, even though life doesn’t always offer you the things you want, you are still entitled to happiness and good will.

P.S. Smile and all the dark clouds will fade away.